Really

So I posted on Facebook, that relaxers were not beneficial o your hair and you would have thought I said eating babies was he next beat thing. I'm a very proud nappy headed girl and. I see no need nor any desire to ever go back to a relaxer, my so calls friends came out of the wood work to tell me how great relaxers have been to them and that they can't wait to get one his upcoming weekend. I'm my mind I'm ok well go ahead and fry your folicles if you want but my natural undesirable kink, coils, curls and locs ( yeah that's all going on one one head) will stil be going strong.

IF I cut them I won't be me

So lately I've been thinking about cutting my locs, I blame it all on my lovely fiance for having a rich and lush head of natural loose hair that is so much fun to play with and comb(he's like my real live Barbie Styling Head) I've gone back and forth on the issue asking everyone, my creamy crack friends tell me I should so that I can have more versatility and be able to straighten my hair now and again (a big no no) others ask me if I will truly be happy once i cut it, and as of right now my only answer is NO I wont feel like myself anymore I'd be just another loose hair nappy, not that I have a problem with loose haired nappy girls, I just feel like i stand out more from the crowd with my locs. I feel as more and more people embrace the natural "look" (notice i didn't say natural life) me cutting my locs to wear loose hair would make me feel as fake as all those girls you see with the Afro wigs who claim they are embracing the natural life and wearing their hair curly, and to them that's all that matters it having big curly hair, not embracing the love of ones self not matter what the texture because not all natural hair is curly and that's not all it means to be natural I think for me growing my locs is more of an expression of "MY" naturalness and right now why errr'body and they granny is going natural i think my locs have more staying power then people who go natural one week them perm the next only to keep the cycle going on an on. So for now I'll just keep loving my locs and since i free form i least get to pretend to have the best of both worlds.

Being Me and being Nautral

Recently I've noticed that I have become more and more protective an defensive about being natural. I always find myself not wanting to post things online about being natural or how awful I think chemically straighting our hair is, for fear of offending people, when I really want to scream it from the rafters. My honest opinion is whether you think it or not holding on to your relaxed hair is subconsciously admitting that being who we are is not good enough for this world, this is the one thing that we as African American people have that no one else can have. Our hair texture is one of the few things that is uniquely us and what do we do? slap some crack on it and call ourselves presentable well ya know what FUCK your idea of presentable MY hair is NAPPPY KINKY and ALL me if that makes me less acceptable I'll take it. :)

Quickie

I am head over heels in loves with my locs as of late, I know me and these bad boys have been together for a minute but i am crazy about them still. I think my freeforming my locs is whats making the love so intense, now instead of focusing on keeping them straight and neat as a pin just concentrating on keeping them happy and pampered is keeping me happy and in love with them. That's it nothing more for now just wanted to shout out my love for freeforming and my love of my locs, off to have some coffee and chill. Smooches

Guess I am crafty

Its been so long since I've rambled on the blog, but I'm back so my foray into soapmaking was a success i love it, I've made about 4 batches so far including a shampoo bar that my locs just love. I have found my new addiction and i am hooked and loving it. Soapmaking is giving me the creative outlet i needed right now so I'm pretty happy about that pics will be up soon of all my ugly but wonderful soaps.

Happy Natural Hair Day!!!

For those Who are natural and on Twitter today is natural hair day so to all you Ladies and Gents I wish you a Happy Nappy Day!

Anywho just stopping in don't want to let this blog go to waste again< whats said about my whole blogging idea is that when i get the inspiration to share and be creative I get all shy and afraid of criticism, sometimes i don't think that i am the cut out to be a blogger. I wish there was a way to blog like i do in my journal cause on here no matter what i say or do i still feel the need to censor myself and that's not why i started this. I wanted to chronicle my loc journey my TTC journey but every time i have what i think is a decent blog post i change my mind and run away. I need an outlet i know that i do but somehow the transfer from plain ole pen and paper to this new fangled (at least to me) blog this just isn't working for me right now. But for now this will be a place of run-on sentence bad grammar horrible punctuations and whatever pops into my head and if you don't like it let me know that's better than nothing.

Hoping for better

Right now I feel emotionally drained and I'm really not sure why, it seems like this day so far has been just a roller coaster of emotions, one minute I'm up the next I'm down. I have faith that I will be better but I just cant take this nagging feeling of sadness. LORD grant me peace and strength because i know thorough YOU all things are possible.