Sunday, December 7, 2008

Babies and Dreadlocks

No no no this is not about babies wearing dreadlocks (dreadlock babies LOL!)
its about me wearing dreadlocks and wanting to have a baby.

I've come to the conclusion that I should just use this blog to talk about my hair cause right now it is the most fascinating thing about me at the moment. I really love my dreads but I'm starting to get a real bad case of lock length envy, more on that in my next post

As for the baby thing I've been really reluctant to talk about this issue with anyone other than my boyfriend, I'm not ready to share it with my friends and family yet, kinda scared about what they will think, but that's not even my issue, its more so the fact that I'm afraid I won't be able to, which is really taking more of a toll on me that i thought it would, we've only been trying for two or three months so we are not even at the point where I should be freaking out. I just don't get why this affecting me so bad. My boyfriend sweet as he is says if it turns out we can't have a baby we can adopt, there are plenty of children who need parents, and there is no reason we can't be those parents. I know this is always an option but it hurts me even more, I know its selfish, but i would love to be able to carry my own child bring my own little piece of me and my sweetie into the world. My main thing is why can't I deal with this, we haven't even been trying long enough, but I'm totally freaking out what will I be like if we are still trying a year from now.
I'm going to pray that I can be relaxed about this and just go with the flow, I know that in the end it boils down to that the LORD has in store for us, so we're just gonna keep up the good fight keep trying and hopefully i can be patient.

Sorry for the punctuation, run on sentences and bad grammar, I'm not good at that when I'm shooting from the hip

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


He did it y'all, we did it, Mr. Obama is our President Elect

I am so grateful and proud to be living in this day and age, I am a part of something my and my friends grandparents and great-grandparents great fought and died for and unfortunately for most of them they didn't make it to this day to experience it. WE are truly living in a new age I now know what it feels like to be a part of something bigger than myself. There are no words to express the fear and excitment I feel about this new administration . I pray for this new beginning, for our future president and to all the kids my age and younger who now know that it is possible there can be someone who looks like us and understands what it is to be us in control. So for all thos who didn't know YES WE CAN!!

Sunday, November 2, 2008


I'm sitting here with my newly created blog and wondering why i've started this, I never have much to say even though it seems like my head is full of thoughts rambling and ideas, I hate having to think about my punctuation and I am deathly afraid of looking stupid in front of others. So why did I start this you ask (or rather I did) I'm hoping that this will give me and outlet, to open up to myself and to others or if that fails gives me something else to do besides play the SIMS.