Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Quick PSA from a non idol watcher

I don't watch American Idol so i dot really get the show so this is just one now=n Idol watchers opinion but.... My PEOPLE, Black People should not win American Idol, not because they are any less talented than their white counterparts, but i don't feel like they can totally encompass what America is looking for in an IDOL. They are always thrown by the wayside by 'some' other races when they do an album that is a little to "ethnic" for the general masses. I am in no way saying they shouldn't compete that's a great way to get your name and talent out there, but when you win it seems like you are pigeonholes and it seems like that can put a damper on any further career. This is just my opinion though i don't think I've even seen a full episode of the show yet, so this is really just mindless chatter on my part. Toodles

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

The Dreaded two week wait

Well technically I'm only in the one week wait due to the fact that AF (aunt flo) is do around this time next week, but either way it is still a dreaded situation. I'm trying not to think about it to much but it is a very difficult thing to do. I'm trying not to psyche myself up just yet I'm praying that I am pregnant but i not gonna let myself be to devastated if I'm not, no point in that it just makes it a an even more stressful situation and environment to try again in. My Honey finally expressed his fears to me and i was like "that's how i feel pretty much all the time" so hopefully he can see now why i get so worked up. NO matter what happens next week i have strong sense of faith and even when i get down i don't give up I know that i will have my babies and that's pretty much all i need to continue on this journey. Peace Love and BABY DUST to all Mothers to be

Friday, May 7, 2010

Gotta love it

Today is not starting off the best for some unknown reason I felt the need too cut my locs so I've cut what ti me seems like a somewhat sizable amount of my locks and now I feel like a plucked chicken. In actuality it was only about 2 inches but it feels really weird. To add insult to injury it the midst of my whole TTC (trying to conceive) adventure two of my coworker are pregnant and we are having a baby shower for one of them. In my mind I want to scream, its no fair but instead I just smile and offer congratulations but I really wish it was me.

Hoping for better

Right now I feel emotionally drained and I'm really not sure why, it seems like this day so far has been just a roller coaster of emotions, one minute I'm up the next I'm down. I have faith that I will be better but I just cant take this nagging feeling of sadness. LORD grant me peace and strength because i know thorough YOU all things are possible.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

They Don't grow overnight Geez!

Ever since i started free-forming my co-workers are obsessed with my taking my locs down, they are fascinated with my new growth. "you should take it down we you can twist it back in a few weeks after we play with it for a while". Why don't they understand that it took a lot of time and patience to grow my babies and I'm not just gonna take them down so they can have something to play with, and on that note why is my hair everyone's plaything how come they cant take the initiative and grow there own natural hair. I love my hair when it was loose and i love my locs now I know that one day I may cut my locs but i pretty sure it will be on my own terms and not for others to play with.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Well this is just sad

I'm am a total dork I'd forgotten all about this so called blog and the really sad thing about it is the only reason i remembered is because i was blog stalking a few loc wearers Hopefully since my life has become just a little more interesting I'll be able to keep this up, well i guess we'll see